Archive for March, 2012

Worship

Posted: 20 de March de 2012 in Sin categoría

I think that for everyone this applies: when you hear the word worship, the first thing you think of is “songs”. Well, I like them too, though my first language is Spanish, worship songs in English have also been a way to get closer to God…

Have you ever asked yourself what could you do to God’s honor and glory? It’s been established that life and relationship with God don’t work like banks, you don’t have to pay for what you received nor you have to offer something to get another thing (of course, I’m talking about forgiveness for our sins and salvation). We got those things for granted, for God’s infinite love and mercy.

Haven’t you felt He is really amazing with the good things that happen in your live? Would you like to do something for Him just to say thank you? I mean, something beyond saying it, come one, he is almighty but he is also a friend, like any other friend, superior, of course, but still a friend, and I guess once in a while you like to do nice things for your friends to tell them “I love you”, “thank you” or any other way to send a special message, just because you feel it to do so, and is spontaneous.

Or maybe is just me, I like to do nice things, I like to have special details with the people I love, I could give a couple of examples but that’s not the point right now. The point is that just the same way, sometimes we feel it towards God, don’t you?

And then songs appear as the first, most famous, and most common option to do that. Great, if you know how to play the guitar, the keyboard, piano or any other instrument. Great, if day by day you practice and improve, making your skills and knowledge wider, great if you sing well or do your best to do it well and also improve. Great, if you start playing and singing others songs and then you start to write your own songs… Or maybe you have no interest in make music one of your hobbies or something bigger (more important), and you just wanna learn and sing songs that you heard, and somehow they touched you.

Well, this is my case: I play keyboard, but no piano, I mean, my left hand is used to play the chords, while the keyboard give me the rhythm, so my left hand is pretty “dumb”, if you know what I mean, and my right hand (the notes) is pretty skilled. I can get the musical notes (melody) of a song by listening to it, get the chords online, look for the right rhythm to it and play it, sometimes is easy others I really have to practice and try harder to get it. I like to sing though my voice is not the best, is pretty strong, and sometimes is really hard for me to sing a high note or when is low, my voice gets lower than what is supposed to be. Besides, this is just a hobbie. They say God doesn’t take that into account, well I think that He deserves perfection, and mine is not in music. Still I’ve learned a lot of songs this year that I have saved in my computer on a separated folder called “God’s music”, and also they are as a playlist with the same name on my cellphone. Sometimes I listen to them and sing, it makes me happy, I like it.

Have you ever feel you should (or you would like to) use your talent and the best thing you know how to do, to honor God? I make this question to whoever is reading this, but also I think in someone in specific: a friend who loves photography, I wonder if she has ever felt or thought that, and if because of that she have turned her talent into actions to honor God… maybe, you know, taking pictures at Paraiso, could be an example…

Well, mi talent, and the best thing I can do is writing, and today I came to the thought that I would like to use my writings to honor God, how?, is the key question. I’ve never taught anything to people, I mean not when it comes to pure knowledge, life experience doesn’t count in this case. I’ve never taught anything cause I always say I’ve never done that before and I have no experience nor methodology. And then I picture myself taking a diploma or something like that in pedagogy and then saying to myself “ok, now I’m ready to teach”. It is not a conscious nor deliberate, premeditated excuse but it is a excuse, how am I supposed to get experience if I never try? I have no idea how to teach English nor how to teach writing skills, but I can try, I would like to, specially the second part, not only because is the best thing I can do but because is also a way to be free, you know, to take out the things that oppress you, open a little bit, is also a way to get though you inner self and try to fix your life if you think you have to or need to, don’t tell me everything is perfect. Writing is an option and is for the ones who want it and like it, to take things out, to write fictional stories, etc., (actually when you tell kids -or people in general- to write a story you can see real stuff reflected in it, could be a good way to start). And kids from Paraiso are going through a lot of things…

I don’t know, just thinking, it could help… Too bad something else occupies my Saturday mornings right now, I can arrange it to be on Saturday afternoons, maybe not sure cause I don’t know (I don’t remember) what it is the latest time I can see him, you know is up to him and his agenda (psychologist). If possible, then maybe I would miss the Parche, and I would have to make the decision whether I prefer to share and give to people than to receive from God and His word. If I feel is my time to give, then I guess I already got the answer to that choosing part. You never stop learning and I have a lot to learn from God but He has been more than generous with me, and is my time to give, to honor Him, to say “Thank you, Lord”, but in actions.

Feel free to remember me anytime what I just said/write, and what I wanna do, it can’t be just a blog post, it has to turn into actions.

God and parents

Posted: 2 de March de 2012 in Sin categoría

Choose the word of your preference:

a) They

b) We

c) People

…say, as long as they (we) believe in God, that you can’t understand Him with your reason. That has two readings: one is about how the greatness of God is such, that we won’t ever be able to understand Him. The other it’s more a defensive argument for those who reasons not to believe, are based in reason (sorry for being redundant).

So we tell them stuff like: you can’t pretend to understand God’s existence, God’s love, God’s greatness with your reason. Reason is not necessarily the way to the truth, the only way is Him, reason is too small and limited to get Him. You can not expect to demonstrate His existence the same way you find out whom of you children is lying. Your reason is more than enough to discover that kind of trues or lies, but not enough nor even close to what it is necessary to get God. Even talking about “what it is necessary to get Him” is a way of saying that path is long, has no end though you move forward, and is unknown.

I have had my own troubles when it comes to learn and accept the fact that my first connection with God are my parents, not as the ones from whom I got my faith but because they are the representation of God in my life, they are the ones who raised me, the ones who love me the most (btw I’m unique daughter so they love me even more, what to complain about?), they are everything.

They aren’t at the same level of God but just because they are human, the rest is pretty much the same. So this is something Fercho has been telling us several times and I always know where and how those words fit and apply in my life… He says we can not expect to have a good relationship with God if we don’t have it with our parents either.

If so far you are pleased or almost in love of what I wrote (agree), then my apology if I disappoint you, I know I will. Just because despite the beautiful words above, I’m a girl of 22 and not exactly a role model. I’m not a bad person but either a good daughter. I haven’t put in actions anything of what you just read. I confront my parents, disobey them or show an attitude in which you can read the message “leave me alone”.

Things are complex, it is not just saying “I know this is wrong”, click your fingers and everything changes…

Anyway my point is, back to what Fernando says (and with my own additions-interpretations), that parents comparison to God it is not just about how them are the bridge to come close to Him, but also that their love for us is as big as the one God has for us, and by big I don’t mean the measure of it but the impossibility to understand some stuff that only love can explain. You can not understand reasonably the love of your parents, just in the same way you can not understand God.

Some people are so linked to the world of self reasonable thinking, me included. And we fall in the mistake to put everything under reason’s look, we believe that is the best way to “win”, to show ppl that what I believe is right and should be understood and respected. I don’t wanna say they rest is wrong, but I demand some respect on my own stuff and what they mean to me.

Well this rational thinking has taken me to put under reason’s look not exactly the relationships with my parents (as if reason were the best or unique judge), but to give it the command to tell me what to do or say when I talk to them and the subject is a matter of quarrel. You know like “this is the fast and better way to be victorious”.

Heart is repressed, heart is protected. My family is everything to me, is so important, is my cornerstone, I’m no one without them. So if to me they are so important, why would I put in bet my heart and my feelings when we fight? No way, I rather take them out and play with the wise reason… Well “the wise reason” has also the power to hurt, and for that, heart and feelings play the role of consciousness. Reason can try to play both roles but is not successful… I know that the last two emails I sent to my mom, though I meant well, I wasn’t rude and I pretended to explain some important points with no intents to hurt her, I kind of did cause it was the cold reason talking.

Recently I wrote about the same topic saying that when love for someone is so big, we only expect good things from that person; when what we get from them is wrong or unexpected, we get hurt…

So I recognize what are my faults, now I need to face them and work on them.